The new stuff I forgot to mention...

November 9th, I got a car, and a new cat all at the same time. On Tuesday the eighth, my dodge neon of 10 years died on me. The windows were leaking, the turn signal broken, no AC, and a host of other things were going wrong with it when it just decided to cut out on me while driving home. Thankfully I was less than a block away from home and I just walked on home. It started up again, and we were able to put it in the drive way. The next day we went to look at cars and got a hyundai sonata. It had 22,000 miles on it, and it was a 2005. We bought an extended warranty on it since we like to keep cars until they are worthless, and we were able to buy it out right. No payments! I hated spending such a huge chunk of money on something, but we have already saved up a quarter of what we paid for it. By the end of the year we will have our savings back up and we will be buying a house soon.

Oh, the cat. So she showed up with a buddy on our doorstep when we pulled into the driveway on Tuesday night (the night before we got the car) We loved on her a little bit and her buddy wouldn't come near us. It was getting cold the next day so we kept an eye out for her, and of course, we fed her. That Wed, we had noticed that she slept in the neighbour's patio furniture and she kept meowing to come in. IT was going to turn very cold, so we set up a cage for her in the garage. We put in a notice at the shelter in case anyone was looking for her, but we got no response, so a few days later we let her in our house. She immediately acted as if she had always been there, and bossed the other cats around. On Dec. 9th, we finally dug into our pockets and shelled out money for her to see the vet. They estimate her age to be around 6 months and she was in perfect health. They think she will be a large cat and she is very muscular. Her it is on the 25th and we still don't know what to call her. DH calls her blackie, but I kind of like Ezzy, short for esmerelda. She still needs to be spayed. Hopefully we can get her before she starts her caterwauling.

I have no title...Just stuff.

Got an "A" in my class. Still 4.0. Great, but a lot of pressure to keep it up. If I can get through tw0 more classes without a blemish I will be good to go until I decide to go back for my Phd. Pfft. Don't laugh. I could you know. Why not? What else am I going to do with my time and money? I may as well.

Tomorrow is the last day before Xmess break. I have no idea why I feel so hostile right now, but I just want to shout out a hearty Fuck YOU to a good portion of the people out there in the world. Not for any good reason, and nothing personal. I just feel like lashing out at someone, anyone, and perfect strangers are better than those I love right now. Mostly better than lashing out at her, my mother. She has become so disagreeable since she has been ill and I have to pretend that I am agreeing with her. I don't want to hear about her Bush worship. I don't want to hear about her hating the liberals, and blaming every goddamn thing on those damn liberals. She has become beyond ultra conservative. It creeps into every goddamn sentence. Mom, You are wrong. God doesn't belong in the schools, Happy holifuckingdays is just as good as saying Merry motherfucking Christmas, I support Gay rights and think they should be able to marry. I support Abortion rights, and thank God I still have the ability to control my own reproductive choice should the need come about. And I can't remember what the hell else it is that bugs the crap out of me, but just can it for a while willya? Oh, and I am sorry for whatever it was I did when I was 5 fucking years old. I am now 37. Can we let it go? Quit thinking you know me when you refuse to acknowledge that I haven't been that way in years.

Yeah, I love you, and I feel guilty. I feel guilty because of a lot of things that I feel for you. Things that can't be said.