from post secret today...

an old photograph of two newly married people. On it the words read

Today I realized I could no longer remember what you were like when you still loved me.

How lucky that person is to not remember. I wish there was a medical procedure that could erase so much of my memories right now.

horoscope for january 14, 2008

Try to come to a place of serenity today, dear Gemini, in which you free yourself from desire and jealousy. It is important that you take time to recognize the incredible growth that can spring forth from this position of calm and pure satisfaction. Rid yourself of excess baggage that you cling to as some sort of support or means of comfort. The less you carry, the more you free up your arms to create.

And this is exactly what I realized yesterday when I did a reverse search and found Gina's last name. Why? Why did I do it? I kind of remember what she looks like from the time I met her at Frank and Kari's. If it is the one I am thinking of. And if it IS, she wasn't all that. Still, there is a part of me that is wondering what does she have that I don't have? THAT is the baggage that I need to rid myself of. I know what she has now and I realise that I am better off without it.

I also freed myself from the dating service. I feel as though I am hooked to it and waiting for something to happen. I am seeing a great guy. He is stable, kind, FUN, caring, great kisser, positive, has a close relationship with his family and values that, and just about perfect. Just about. Why not let things develop? Why keep waiting for perfection or something to happen? It isn't. everyone knows that.

my wishes today

Today I wish

1. To experience beauty.
2. To know what it is like to love again.
3. To know what it is like to not fear again.
4. To know what it is like to trust again.
5. To have a fleece shirt that feels that brand new softness everytime you put it on instead of that clumping texture it gets.
6. For continued inspiration in productivity in my personal life.
7. For the health and well being of those that I love.

Today's Gemini Horoscope for Jan 10, 2008
In all your time spent trying to stabilize your emotions and achieve sensitivity, you may be getting too caught up in your feelings, dear Gemini. Because of this you may have not been listening to your rational mind at all lately, even though it is crying out for you to get on with things and move forward into a different situation than the one you are in now. Take some time to listen to your mind and take it a bit more seriously than you have been. More...