It's a Sunday and what am I anxious about?

I have an observation scheduled this week for my job.  I just don't want to do anything to prep for it.  I am burnt out for the year already.  Spent...my wad blown.  That happened way too early this year.

So, what am I grateful for?  Let's concentrate on that.
My house and the getting ready for the holidays...Oh yes, I have taken them back and this year I really want to do some beautiful decorating.

My job...yes, it sucks right now BUT, I have a job with benefits and that is very good.

My friends and family.  They're still here and they keep me sane.  I need to remember to rely on them better and I need to be a better friend.

My health...Needs to be better as I've fallen off the wagon on fitness and nutrition.  Must get back on that and not take for granted that I CAN!

My abilities to keep myself sane and happy though i need to be better disciplined in some areas.  Motivation and inspiration need work.

And something is cracking...

I don't know where.  

Ice on the side walk brittle branches in the air....Oh Ms. Vega a way of painting pictures with words.  The kind of pictures you feel and see like a movie screen going through your head.  

I miss you.  Whoever  you are.  I miss you.