Dick Clark ....

Dick Clark died today.   He was 82.

 My mother should still be alive.  6 years ago was the start of all that was wrong.  Danny's child Nick died.  Mom was too sick to go to the funeral.  I went to the funeral by myself.

6 years ago was the worst year of my life.

Today I found out how luck I am.  How my marriage was based on more than the lies of how I thought we were a happy couple.  Fidelity.  Trust.  honesty.  None of those existed as I thought.  It makes me feel just fine to know that now.  I can take him down from that pedestal that I know he didn't belong on anyway.

Amazing.