Life is good...

Today I am grateful :
To be me
To have conquered the lawn equipment
To be loved
To be able to love
To be a part of this world
To be healthy
To be employed at a job I love
To be beautiful
To be soulful
To be happy
To be
To be
To be!

I like this quote...

with every goodbye i feel relieved. my life begins again. i learned to love goodbyes.

It was in response to a post card that said You learn...With every good bye, you learn.

The secret...

It is a book I am reading that was recommended to me by a student. It is based on the law of attraction... positive attitude gets positive results. I feel good when I read the book. I got it from the library but I am thinking of buying a copy. It is one of those things you have to practice and I need a guide for now so that I can get into the habit. You see? I am already thinking positive. I did not complain that it was hard. I did not say that I am trying to keep from being jaded. I am going into it with an open mind.

I want to remove negative words from my vocabulary.

Instead of saying I am trying, I want to say I am practicing or I am getting better at...

Instead of saying no, I can at least start saying maybe.

When I don't want to do something that I know is good for me, I will talk myself into the results that I will see once I do the act that is beneficial. An example of that would be when I don't feel like going swimming. I ALWAYS feel better once I have done it. There is no drug that can substitute the feeling of excercise.


My basement flooded again. Tomorrow I will spend the day cleaning and disinfecting. My plan is to call a professional and have it waterproofed. It isn't a luxory, it is a necessity if I ever choose to move. In the mean time, I don't plan on moving so it would be nice to finally have that as usable space. It is a win win situation and worth the money.

Of men and lawn...

I had another date on Saturday. I dreaded going but it was actually a pleasant time. He is local, Italian, short with nice teeth and a warm smile. Not photogenic at all but cute in person. If I had to say his one shortfall would be that he is a bit on the racist side. Doesn't approve of interacial dating, but it is ignorance more than anything. From what he says, his daughter doesn't see his way at all.

I cut the grass today and weeded around the front where the bushes are and the great bare spot that used to house the old scraggly bushes. I cursed Mike again for deciding that lava rocks would be a good thing to put there. Yeah, because my fucking yard isn't rocky enough. How do I dispose of them? do I just put some in bags to dispose of every garbage day? Maybe. I dunno. It seems like such a waste of plastic and environmentally unsound. Do I get a big garbage can and wash them off and try to sell them for the yard sale? Ugh. They're everywhere. Not only that, but I have noticed the ones that are on the hill are contained by those "concrete" stones that Mike made and he inspector gadgeted them right to hell with Big fucking nails sticking into them. That's an accident waiting to happen and will probably happen on MY foot. It is going to be a job, but I WILL get that yard looking good. If I have to hire someone, then I will, but after that initial work is done, then I should be good to go. I know I am going to need a tree trimmer. I have a lot of trees that are probably going to need to come down. I just have no idea how much this stuff is going to all cost.

lesson today....

Today's Gemini Horoscope: May 03, 2008
Key into your sensual, beautifying nature, dear Gemini. Take time each day to attend to your soul and make sure it is getting the nourishment it needs to radiate boldly out onto the world. Unexpected people are likely to pop up out of nowhere, so don't be surprised if a former lover comes knocking on your door. Things from the past may be coming back to the present reality in order to teach you a valuable lesson about life.